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I'm not a "victim" of divorce

                    I’m not a “victim” of divorce. I was very much present at the court house signing my name on the line. I stood there in front of friends and family and vowed “til death do us part”. I’m partly responsible for my marriage coming to an end. I contributed to our failed relationship.                          I went into my marriage unsure & afraid. Why did you move forward then Dione? I moved forward with the marriage because I believed that he was the only man of his kind. Nice house, car, good job, funny, charming & seemingly responsible. On second thought, to be honest, I moved forward with the marriage because I didn’t believe in me. I didn’t believe that I was “qualified” or “good enough” for such a man. I didn’t have much. I was a college dropout, lived at home with my parents and was only working a part-time job. “What good man would ever want me?” I thought to myself.   I was moving in fear. I was afraid that if I didn’t marry him, then I’d lose hi

Letting Go....

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I chose to let go of that "comfortable lifestyle". A six-figure household income. A beautifully decorated home that was built from the ground up. Stamps in my passport. Shopping every weekend. Hair & nails always done. Restaurant tabs totaling hundreds of dollars. Never wanting for anything some would say. But I wanted for a lot. I wanted for true love, peace, joy & acceptance. I chose to let go of that "comfortable lifestyle" because I needed purpose. I needed to know that I really mattered & that I am worth fighting for. I needed to know that my being here actually made a positive difference. I chose to get uncomfortable so that I can work towards greatness, self love, strength, peace & true happiness & at this point, nothing makes me more happy than being able to inspire others by what I've overcome. #GoingForGold2017 #ThisIsMe2017

The End......

So it's the last day of 2016. It's truly bittersweet. I honestly didn't think I was going to make it to see this day. This year has been one for the books! Here's my moment of transparency......*Its kinda long* We buried my oldest brother at the young age of 44. I definitely never wanted to see the day any of my siblings died. We miss you so much Scooter. My mother turned the BIG 60! My son met most of my family for the first time since he's been born. That was the beginning of me overcoming my fears. I was served with divorce & child custody papers. Seems like petitions were coming in back to back. In and out of court. Making it very difficult to focus at work, I was losing income & having to take time off. Those legal fees just about cleaned me up. Forced to make the tough decision to move out of my martial home & find the wings to soar on my own.(I'm doing it!) Lots of lonely, sleepless, "eyes full of tears" nights I had. Literall